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Feb. 17, 2006 | 11:45 am
posted by: extracushion in kissmeimbulimic

Does anyone know about your ED?
As some of you know, my boyfriend knows about my bulimia-crap. He is scared to address it and is constantly trying to "fix" me. He tells me how my face is sunken in, that seeing my ribs is a turn-off, that he "prefers a woman with meat on her bones", and he feels that all of this is tough love. I believe that his actions might be justified, but they still hurt. I can't go to the restroom without him saying, "No puking."

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like mercury to hell

from: xglamgothx
date: Feb. 20, 2006 05:44 am (UTC)
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some of my friends and my family know about my ED, i don't really try and hide it anymore.

i think that he may just be telling you that your face is sunken-in and other thigns just because he doesn't want to push the issue anymore.

he may like girls that do have a little bit of meat on them, but you should point out the fact that you don't have this ED FOR him or because of him...it's about how YOU feel and the way you like yourself to be.

<3 randi

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from: extracushion
date: Feb. 24, 2006 12:25 am (UTC)
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He doesn't want to push the issue. He just likes to say that shit when he catches me looking at my body a certain way, or studying a nutrition label (which I have gotten him to do now as well :) for his health purposes of course). He's been a lot better lately, but I'm sure it's because of some other crap we have going on.
It's amazing to me how a lot of people just can't grasp the fact of the whole food thing. Like, being afraid of it, or whatever. This ED was never discussed out loud until recently (which, was not entirely by choice), and now I feel even worse about it all because I can't explain it in well enough terms. I can't explain why I do these things to myself without knowing I am loosing some kind of respect with these people.
I don't know. It's been a rough week. I would never want my family to know about any of this though. Never. They mean too much to me, and I know it would hurt them. Both of my parents tend to blame themselves for things that have gone wrong in mine and siblings lives. Things that were not their fault at all (i.e. I got into a car accident when I was 16 years old because I was skipping school with a friend (she was driving). And my parents blame themselves). I would just hate to disappoint them even more than I already have. They are too good of people.
Well, this was a rather long reply. I think I just had to vent a few things :) Hope you don't mind!

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like mercury to hell

from: xglamgothx
date: Feb. 26, 2006 02:36 am (UTC)
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not at all <3 :]

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like mercury to hell

from: xglamgothx
date: Feb. 26, 2006 02:39 am (UTC)
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p.s. may i add you?

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from: extracushion
date: Feb. 26, 2006 04:08 am (UTC)
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Of course.
Though, I don't really use this journal. I'll add you to my main LJ ;D

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guilty_cravings

from: guilty_cravings
date: Mar. 15, 2006 11:45 pm (UTC)
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My husband knows about my b/p, he does not know how much I do it but he knows I do it. It freks him out a lot. When I go to purge and he is around he trys to give me compliments in hopes I will learn to except myself and be happy, but it never works. Then I feel really bad.

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